Last week’s video was hella glum, and I have to thank you for all being so amazingly supportive. I honestly don’t know what I would do without you.
Your support helped me think that maybe I’m worth putting the effort in and maybe I’m not totally alone in this and maybe I do deserve to be happy and healthy…and although I’m not 100% back on plan, I’m definitely eating more healthily than I was.
There were slips ups, obviously – the intense London heat meaning that ice-cream was necessary on Wednesday night, for example – but I lost 4lbs, which I think just shows how badly I was eating before.
I’m trying really hard not to put pressure or care too much in case I mess up again. At this point I’m basically treating dieting like it’s a bad boyfriend I’m pretending not to care about so it’ll fancy me, which probably isn’t healthy but if it’s going to stop me freaking out it’s worth it.